Goodbye 16 and happy 17 years of living through this hell

Ok people.. Ernie is turning 17.. Cool thing is driving =)... Ok people... here it goes..

I'll be putting this treat at AC which tomorrow ON TUESDAY 30TH JANUARY.. Maybe i'll treat ya guys lunch. Just come and see me if ya get me there and join the fun.. Hope its fun though cause nothing much at AC or maybe we'll take a cab or bus down to pyramid to catch a movie.. Might be opening a few tables of pool.. And its maybe after school till MAYBE midnight.. So if i'm not around or something ring me babe.. 0163062093.. Which i definately be there 80% sure about it.. Unless AC got hijack or bombed.. So se ya guys around there...

And to nigga shit abel.. You're expacted to be there.. Giggles*..

Thanks for the loadsome time of reading this =) hope ya guys can make it there too.. Cause recently i haven't been throwing birthday party or treats ever since my bro Aaron Lim a.k.a Fish has left of US.. So i guess i'll just have this small treat for a start and more big events which soon the years to come.. =)..

Wanna know whawt i want? I wanna black Rose.. ReAL 1 not painted!!
Get permission from my dad to allow me to pierce =)..

Thats all babes... Sighning off Grave
*Gotta find cash before i go empty tomorrow AaHAhahahhAhah*

Welcome to the Crusade

Well days passes by AGAIN!!.. Depression got in and out of me AGAIN!!.. Losing money due to drunking and hangin out with abel AGAIN!.. HAha.. We went on a date that sunday to watch death note.. Photos? Nah.. No copys.. P&C sssshhhhh....

Oh well recently i've been occupying myself with tuition.. Sleep.. Hanging out with abel.. water polo and most of all WoW.. Ben playing wow to distract my minds from the truth i've been true.. So all i just hope theres more friends out there to join me in this game so atleast i won't be that lonely with most of the white ppl there.. And i got 2 quest pass so just hope ya guys interested.. Give me a ring... Heres a lil priview.. Got a lil high after playing it xD..

Welcome to the Crusade

Behold! Lightwind!

Squishing lil piggies!

Riding wolfies.. Awooo^_^

Awaiting enemies.. Ready to pounce!

SORRY!!!!

SORRY PPL!! ITS NOT MY FAULT FOR NOT UPDATING THIS WEEK AGAIN!!! Well ya see right... My 'camera man' LIM SOON MIN!!! The ()@#*(!&@(!*&@* ass who never develop the photo to the General Manager made the whole some fun missing.. Damn.. So hard we camwhored and we got delays.. I shall delay his wager too .. AhahHA Well just bear it there with me ppl.. I will start updating things up to date some day soon... Give me a day or 2

This is what i do, when i am Thinking of you

Ok sorry guys for the late update again..Haha..Always never get enough picture…We’ll start with a kick off a lil about me..Asking me ‘How am I ?’ for instance…Ok I’m pretty much fine though abit quiet when it I at sitting at home with my homework or even when blogging here.. Well I can say that now adays I love school…Why? Its simple…The ppl there that kept me company , that takes my sorrow away and make me smile even though when I’m down… Well this year we did something pretty much extraordinary like buy cupboards as lockers, bring a new friend….A pet fish O_O… Making chessboard =.=…Keeps us entertained ,kills time and also makes me say no to ‘hate school’



Morning when reached school…The opening ceremony of fishie’s in to 5bakti’s Ocean..



See they so happy… As I am when I am at class



So that’s where we called our locker and the fish spot for those who emo and unhappy could just go and stare at the fish..Drives ya crazy inside out..


Me and my classmate, Weng Hoong doing the chessboard



Wa la….!!! Fun ain’t it..Prefects can’t get it cause its made out of paper…



Some rubbish we picked up…Came in handy



The vanity of us… Thanks to soon min he broke the mirror and bad luck strikes him on the same day..Can’t recall what happen to him… I guess it was the incident that he fall right on his butt… xD.. Smack that




See what I mean…Happy smiles…Can’t put serious face… Just like smiling… Just being happy as the way she is right now =)…


Ok on with the next chapter…I was out for tuition at etika..Then decide to stop by for some fun…So I caught up with abel at station one… Was chatting a lot of things..Catching up stuff we left out since we didn’t meet…Lots of interesting things and happy stuff…Though it was sad to see that the group we use to have last time was a happy 1..Now parted till it left the small group of us…Sad ly the both of us also can’t play The Burning Crusade due to cash problem…Abel tell his pity story abou hunting reload during the night for his pack…Makes my tummy hurts when I laugh… HAha..Ok back on track.. I was with abel till kukumalu came along.. Weee… Then he told about this lecturer on his Tuesday and Friday class..Keeps his eye wide open …Get what I mean? So after that off we go to ac… Hit some foosball Not me..but they make the joke of the day playing foosball too haha…First time see abel sweat too xD..



Abel concerntrating on his “boomstickz shot”



Kukumalu on his ‘john C’ Or Johnny C or john Z shot =.= ..Or whatever you called it…



Becoming referee and learning xD…



So after the foosball session which theres more jokes to tell but just can’t make you guys read so much right? AHhaahH Ok after foosball we went back to kaos at night… Meet up with Eugene Oi and played CS…HAhaHAh I was a joke playing CS..Screwed up the whole formation…Eugene shouted “INNER….OUTER….BODY TANK….LEFT RIGHT BACK FRONT” LoL which I didn’t pretty much understand those short forms haha… Well it was fun though…Meeting up with Eugene Oi ,kukumalu , and brother abel was a never ending laughing night… Always do enjoyed the time…So thanks guys for being there for me again…

Life Goes on, Better die

Ok it was kinda late for the update...OH well now this is for saturday ...Been lonely lately and nothing to do at home..So my friends called up to head for the club...So i went to sunway club at 11am and planned for squash , sadly it was occupied and have to use the gym and after that we went for a swim

Dummy me HAha

See that jackass standing there..Couldn't resist the fun in the pool so he jumped in later and guess the bad news...He came up laughing and said "My dick flew off AhAhahAH" ...Went like "wtf how did that happen"

Well end of the pool site..The rest was cencored xD..Off we go to the men's room and in to the sauna we go =) ..Burn those fats



The 2 mother fucking gays...Sighs*

And WE did some pirated technique which i copied from kukumalu since we saw lights in the sauna xD..And this is how it is



Gay me and nicky...Dragon ball wannabes... AHah Ok fastfoward~~



Love New York.. xD..Thanks shi Wei..Chinese New Year bring more of these shirts for me =)...Ok well all done bathing and off we go to ss15 for jamming..Some crappy place...WEnt there and i hardly manage to play shit...So unprepared...Didn't draft the song and i forgot totally everything...Was pretty screwed up for the first time..But will do better..Thats why no pictures or video for the screw up jam session AHahHA...

So off we go to carrefour, to get a cupboard and mirror...WE guys and vained..Need this shit in class...Cupboard=For leaving books at school,What can the school do? This time they can't confiscate our books because we got our own cupboard xD... Mirror = after alot of sleeping and wind blowing, hair intend to change shape...So the mirros does its job...

Great!!! The rained..Whos gonna carry the cupboard and mirror xD...

And on the other hand i just drop by parkson to get my pay...Bloody hell again they postponed...I needed the money to get a WC beanie and sling bag...Sighs...* delay another day...And gonna be busy soon due to the Undang Test which i hardly study...There goes 50bucks zZzZz..

Ok i reached home soaking wet..Of course without the cupboard! My dudes took it...So the news was ,mom said wanted to renovate the house after my spm and clear the house and stuff...Oh well =.= She asked for extended back.. and front and lots more crap...Women~~~ So i threw almost half of my crap in my room ..Didn't know it was so messy in there..Now its super clean.. So time to called it a day...I went to friends house... Had a 5% black label..Mom didn't let for the 40%...(ok quit boasting me >.< )


Damn orange juice didn't give me the kick to be emo =(...Oh well ..So i was at his place srolling the youtube ..And i got this cute video



Damn cute man the penguin HahaHA... Thats gonna be my penguin 1 day ><....(this is not pingu ok? shoo shoo) High me being tipsy... So after that we went mamak at 2.30 and i got back and get this post done for my peeps...So hope ya enjoy it..I'll be doing the post on my class update next week...Stay tune for it...Alright..Signing off Grave† ...
(but don't spam the box ><)

Not a New Leaf but a Renewed Leaf

This is what i picked up during some mind thinking and some realising:
*Life is almost as bitter as beer thats why when you're depress you suck on them*
*Always take your friends and your love 1s 3rd in your heart*
*Doesn't mean you have the most ex proves you that your more experience *
*Forget and forgive, and if you receive and memory in return ,you'll seek hope or if you don't see anything ,you've just wasted your time*
*Open your eyes at the 1s you love and ask them "do you want me more than i want you?"*
*Replacing some1 is just plain stupidity, its like running away from the fact that break up occurs, when you did not do anything about it, cause one fine that till you realise that everytime you replace, it will just happen again and again till you open your eyes *
*Not forgetting someone you lost is not wrong its just proves that how loyal you were *
*Never miss-use or play around with trust and love..Just believe*
*holding a friend close that understand and think the same way must comes with trust and not secrets*
*Will you say taking back a paper called recycle or rubbish? Try applying it in life*
*Give attention when you are at attention*
*Don drag the crowd wanna be!!*
*Don't talk...DO IT!*
*Don't, don't care...ACEPT THE MAJORITY*
*being someone and being something doesn't proves you're greater, its just pride but who knows someday it might be good and it might end with lonelyness to make you noone*
*Someone who doesn't tells you is some1 who takes benefits, somone who dares to tell you straight to the face is because they care *
*be who you are but always take in comments cause you'll never know whats going on unless people who are comfortable with it is just leeching on with a mask covering thier face or you'll never know when they dissappear*
*Time heals everything, time is hope, time is precious, time couldn't stop, time goes on, time is a devil, time kills.....Time brings you to sometime you will seek joy when time pass*
*You fall, you get the fuck up and try again*

School starts...And it sucks cause its almost like reupdating ya self...And gotta get use to the weirdness and uncomfortable uniforms!! Ugh!
Yaarp Short hair time again...Shy me ><



AaAa The horror~~~ Its gone~~

Oh well school JUST SUCK...Dicipline teacher gave me a dicipline form due to..........
Jeng jeng jeng*
NEVER COMB HAIR
This is what i said "WTF thats the reason i get for the 3rd day of school?"
Rediculous...Thats why i never liked my school

Ok school its pretty annoying, good past time, gives me knowledge, boring, sleepy and bugging...

So erm....This is are some dedication to the ppl who asked me the questions and wonder if how i were...

1) How am I?
I'm not fine cause i just felt it

2) What i did during the holidays?
Waiting for miricles to fall which it was pretty rediculous

3) Have i dissapointed anyone?
Yes i have dissapointed almost everyone in my life and and been dissapointed of some1

4) Did i go anywhere for a holiday?
No cause i didn't have any will to get out of subang during the holiday

5) Am i ready to face form 5?
No, but i am just going through because i HAVE to not because i want, otherwise i just prefer to remain at home

Ok thats all for that...Now for the thanks, to my fellow buddies and brothers

To abel:
Yo bro, thanks for being there for me through out the holidays and kept my chin up wen i was down...Was damn proud to see ya always looking foward to be at my side..Though my problem ain't that important to you but you still there for me..


To Kyle & Sean:
Thanks buddies for always taking the time to take me out and put some laughter in me during the plain holidays, though sean you're overseas but thanks anywayz

To PHaik Wei:
Thanks for teman me talk when i am lonely...=) But plain reply from you very boring.. AHahHA Stupid pingu!

To Amandah:
HahAH Thanks for cheering me up and share the same thoughts during the holidays..Nice meeting you and nice talking to you everytime =)...Very knowledgeble sometimes..AhhaAH..

To Wei Wen, edvin and sam:
Thanks for accompanying me in everything i've planned to achieve though results are dissapointing but atleast thanks for giving me support on that hope.. And thanks for being there as well to cheer me up...

To jean ,faye and the gang that night:
Guys and babes...Thanks for that night for atleast making my new year something than another dissapointing celebration..Thanks for picking me up to go partay around =)

To my ex buddies and clan mates:
Though we haven't seen each other during the holidays and for dissapointing everyone for taking love problem so serious, i apologise for all that and not hanging with ya guys, and atleast now once in awhile we're seeing each other to catch back time we use to have before..

To Yun Yee:
Thanks for atleast making me realise and really sorry i've dissapointed you the most....Realise alot of things i should have done and listen to you in the past...Though i was stubburn and thing that i was on the right track but yet again i only hurt myself and worry ya...So thanks for everything and being there for me at the right time =)...

And most of all to everyone else..I'm sorry that i have dissapointed you all....Forgotten you all and left those happy time for a better 1...Really sorry but without realising that time and realising now...The old times is all i needed now...So i'll try my best today to get hold of myself and be back Grave again... So forgive me all...And i just wanna to apologise to her aswell that we're just not ment to be...

Signing off Grave†

Sorry for slow updates

Well guys...And girls~~~ Haha....High me*

Ok sorry for the slow updates about my pathetic life...HehHEh ..Been pretty busy getting myself stable of depression and balancing my daily schedule ...So didn't have pretty much time to update...WEll theres alot of things i plan to post up..But just don't have the time..So just hang in there and i guess it'll be up by weeked...HahaHA...See ya till then...

Signing off Grave† ^_^v

(No pics too...Actually i clicked upload but its just too slow thanks to taiwan so i gotta run for tuition xD)

2007 New life and New Pain

Well new year...Year 2007,Happy New year to you all!

A year where beers taste bitter cause my life is always bitter.
A year where a new begining begins.
A year where i pray for a new hope
A year where i want a new chance.
A year for a new life.
A year where you find new pain
A year with lots more positive and negative.
A fucking retard year with SPM.

So this is how i spend my New year...Woke up at 4pm as usual~~~ Played comp ,eat lunch, and bath and once the clock strikes 6 i went over to my new church..Well in my previous post i did say there were gonna be a party on the roof top of the church...Well here is how it is... Didn't take much pic but except during the band session only
College band performance..Turned out pretty cool for thier first appearence..

Well alil bit of fast foward, Since its the roof top it was a view of fire work that could see 1u,KLCC, and pyramid firework, sadly i was there to catch the nice view but....Oh well my pal daniel caught me some photo...Not SOME photo...A photo...AhHAH

There a firework from pyramid...

Well..Reason i missed it? I was at pyramid trying to meet her again as usual...Sadly i didn't get to, she walked off with her friends, oh well... Oh well what can i do? Its almost like a invisible wall there and she just walk pass it... Well Dear Lord i'm seeking for a better chance and all i'm asking is a lil bit of help here for 2007..Tough year to go through without the onces you loved.Amen...
Ok lets not lose track...So after she left me and i was suppose to be with her sister...GG she's missing...HAHA ..So who cares..The 3 muskateers Me,sam and edvin went to the front entrance for some fire work view...Great view it was cause we got sprayed and only get to see half of the explosion... =.= What a waste.... In the crowd we met some SU's and after that start camping at starbucks with sam's friend bianca.Wonder how to spell it..:S:S: sorry girl if you did view it... so then in starbucks found her there too...Having a cup or 2 at starbucks with her friends...Seems pretty joyful to her so better just let New Year eve go as well...And lots more celebration to come =(...And thank loads to edvin she decides to bring me to see jean at magic theatre, the gang was there...WoooooW atleast New Years eve didn't go to waste this time...So we chill out with them over there...Meeting all my old buddies which had been missing... Neither knew they're alive or not... So went to ming tien...Fucking hot retard coffee shop... have a meal and hang out by the road... Our peeps was like camwhoring and shuffling around...Oh well..CAmwhore time ernest...

Good soul jean and me....Thanks jean always there for me ever since i lost love till now...
(Don't let that guy pick on you again, just let him go....Wish i could let mine go too but i can't sorry >.<")


So after camwhoring, more shuffling from the peeps and some sending chicks back... So then suppose to go to moi's house to over night...Great GG again...Pass by PX and in we go for a cpl of games...There i meet my old clan mates or Ex CC mates... Lim, Junkit,edward soh and old school friend boon han.. So after afew games.. Hsien and the rest had to go overnight at moi's house...bunch of 8gays in a house... WoOT... So left me, lim ,jk, sohai and boon... Played till 8am and somehow we still moving lol...WAlked out like jelly to ming tien again for break fast... IMPORTANT MEAL OF THE DAY xD.. Haven't been having breakfast for 1 year already...
Chilling at pyramid like mad fools..And pyramid was dead...PPL-less.Light-less...cool eng xD
Oh well its getting brighter...

So once its time ..We walked ut seperate ways...They went to catch a movie and i went back home...So then again i ,the feeling came back when i reached home....To tell myself this...

"I still love her alot"
"I miss her"


Well i reach home already and hit the shower...After that its straght to bed...9.45am sleep zZZ
So this means goodnight ya all...And welcome back to school...Sad thing that my holiday was a painful 1 and pretty plain being dejavu everyday...HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN YALL...
Signing off Grave†